The last weeks I played no squad ranked Matches but TDM. I think it was OK, but it feels a Little useless in a battle royale game… it’s great for training, but not more…

So on Sunday I tried a squad ranked. As usual alone because all Teammates died early. I thought playing with friends in a lobby is the main problem, but I was wrong. Even if I played in those random lobbies the issue popped up. After two matches my blood pressure raised again. It took about 1 day to lower it. Now the blood pressure is OK and I am sure that it is not PUBG, it’s any game in this category.

It feels like a bottle filled with stress. And a single drop is enough to let it swap.

I thought I can support the Clan in the next Clan Battle but I can’t.

I don’t know if I can play in the future, but for now I have to stop everything what is game related.

I will leave the Clan and the groups. Maybe I am able to come back but I don’t know.

It was a great time and especially the last months were great.

After all fun and exciting matches in the past, in our last matches (only 2!) I finally realized that PUBG has the potential to be dangerous maybe deadly for me.

After January I came back, I couldn’t confirm (or I ignored it again) that Pubg influences my health. But it does.

A little strange but sad reality.

After our last matches (and in the morning a promo match) my blood pressure increased from 126 to 187, fall down to 116 in the evening and raised up to 185 again after we played our 2 matches!

I have to stop playing like I did in the past. I am too ambitious, I am not relaxed and I am obviously stressed and more important: it is not only a problem for me, my wife is also feared about me… It is too much for her, she feels it! And she talked to me so often: “Breathe!” I ignored this, I thought I was relaxed… but I wasn’t.

In other words: I am too old for playing PUBG in this way.

Only reducing the amount of matches is not the solution. One match is enough to push the blood pressure in a potential dangerous area.

I don’t know if I will find a mode, maybe I will turn back time and play FPP unranked like in the beginning. Long waiting times, relaxed matches… I don’t know.

In the past I tried to bring the best and most amazing people of the world together: And it was successful and I am glad about it. The clan has the best Core Team ever, made so many points and won any clan battle: It’s a great Clan.

My time has come as a leader and player in the best clan ever. Over 3 years of leading the most amazing team, over 3 years of enjoying another side of PUBG with friends and comrades. I thought I could lead until the Clan reaches Level 10… I will not make it.

I think, I can’t expect more. I am glad that you provided this experience to me.

What will happen next?

1. I will stop playing in a TFB squad
2. instead I will play unranked matches only and will instantly stop playing if I feel bad. I have to try it alone, maybe later in a team.
3. I will try to find a mode which doesn’t stress me. Maybe it could be Duo, I really don’t know.

I hope none of you get it wrong.

I love to play with anyone, but I can’t anymore, for me and my wife.

If I play with you, I would never stop playing in the middle of a match and leave, I stay often too long (“one last match”) and I want to win if I play with you.

And this is dangerous for me.

I ignored the signs.

We will see us soon.